"god damn that bible pushing man...." shannon hoon

that song was in my head all morning after Jacob sang it to me last night. (blind melon song)

I'm going to state for the record, I don't care if I offend anyone with this blog. The blog is something I write for myself, as a form of creative expression. A place where I can go to honestly vent and share with my family and close friends a bit of myself which I normally tend to hermit. I'm pretty good at offending people these days, but honestly, I'm not really here to make friends, I'm here to be me and speak my truths, as they change and evolve. I'm here to share my stories and experiences, thats about it really. I'm much better at writing and taking photos than I am conversation. I'm pretty much a hermit and like it that way, I only come out when there is something that interests me, or I have a need to be met. (like sunshine, or food, water etc..)

So here is todays vent.  

I've never lived in a community where there were more pushy christians than there are here in Sarasota. Strange to me there are people who feel they are on a mission to save others. I mean, couldn't I say the same for them? "geesh, jesus is the ONLY god you worship? don't you know there are OTHER scriptures and OTHER gods? YOU SHOULD BE 'SAVED' FROM YOUR BOX or you SHOULD do anything....blah blah..."

but honestly, I don't feel the need to go there, because I respect peoples' belief systems and what works FOR THEM and their family.  I don't really have the energy to expend on debating religion because I just birthed a beautiful little girl and want to spend all my time staring at her smile all day :)

I don't want to push my opinions and beliefs onto other people. If someone asks, well sure I'll share it with them if i've got the time.... and since there has been so much community gossip and questioning since my last post and its presently nap time....

I just wanted to state that in my reality there is room for both Jesus AND fairies. because for me god created fairies, and gnomes and trees, and food and animals and us.  

I can thank the sun by drumming out a tune on a Siesta beach sunset just as much as I can get on my knees and thank jesus for being in my heart, just as much as I can use the teachings of Buddha to guide me closer to compassion, just as much as I can read the dao of pooh and find truth etc...

god or truth is NOT something that I want to put into a box with a label. it is expansive and contains EVERY religion, and every faith. What we believe in our home is that yes, there is one GOD...and he created mother nature to watch over the plants, he created saints to attune towards when we're feeling like sinners, he created creation itself. Do I call that one god Jesus? no. Has Jesus 'saved' me, on occasion, yes :) I've felt Jesus in my heart on SEVERAL occassions and thank him kindly for his teachings and the sacrifices that he has made. and while I'm grateful that jesus died for my sins...i'm also not going to go around sinning and thinking that i'll be free from karmic debt if only I rest all of my faith in him. my conversations go something like "thanks for sacrificing yourself jesus...truly you are amazing...but i really didn't need that from you. I'll handle my own karma, and do my best with the time i have here on earth"

jesus and I talk all the time. He knows my heart and soul. we're good like that.

he knows I don't need to go the church to find god, because to me, god is EVERYTHING and EVERYWHERE. 

I think we could all learn a valuable lesson from "the old turtle and the broken truth"? and don't most people see that big tattoo of a turtle on my back and know that i'm all about the whole message of that story "YOU ARE LOVED...AND SO ARE THEY!!!"

alas..kiddos wake. off to dance with the fairies and say thanks to father wind for his lovely breeze today....more later perhaps?