i want to sit and get lost in the tide

walk through amazon rain forests hearing the humming of exotic creatures calling me closer to my self

in this moment

all is lost in this moment

as my mind fails to think itself clearly

somewhere between laundry and sweeping

between karma and its weeping

my camera lost focus

somewhere between reason and hope

my legs lost their quickness

somewhere between then and now

I was never taught forgiveness

I pace inwards and outwards

between memory and now

trying to find that place

(you know, the one you know exists if everything where "different" but you then realize that its an illusion and you end up with more the same no matter how "different" you try to make things)

trying to keep up

with a world that moves to quickly for my taste

the humdrum of the rat race

so quickly how it can erase 

ones dreams

I was driving home this morning and saw a bumper sticker that said "People who abandoned their dreams will discourage yours"

it spoke to me...as I found myself discouraging myself...wondering what those dreams ever were that i abandoned...

then finding myself in the dream, all too AWAKE

these short moments to process

come quickly

holding on for the ride HOME

"you know its all going to be ok, right jamie?"

"yeah, I do....its just getting there thats the scary part"

oh how I miss the WOODS!!

as i carelessly step on the cracks on the pavement.

those spaces between, carrying me further out of my mind

oh those lovely cracks in the pavement!!